Intuition & Conscious Spiritual Practice

Last week I was lost and looking for the way out. It always helps me to get out of town. It's the perspective change that you get just by changing environments.

I'm birthing myself again. Yes, again. I believe it vital to do this every once in a while. It keeps you honest and also sets you free of patterns (yours or other's) that might have stuck to you but certainly don't serve you.

Me, I do a lot of dancing between what I know my own truth to be - particularly as a psychic healer and someone who works daily with the unseen realm - and what I think people are comfortable hearing and knowing.

Judith Orloff's words bring me both comfort and courage to move ahead.

WOW excerpt - Make Your Intuition a Conscious Spiritual Practice (Judith Orloff's chapter)

The intuitive realm doesn't obey the same laws as the physical universe. It isn't sequential - it's non-time, non-space. In the silent space there is no past, present or future. Sometimes this disorients people. Mystics have described this as oneness, and when you begin to feel this oneness - this flow that's between everybody, every living thing, and every nonliving thing - there's a relationship going on. You can feel it as a pulse and it's very real. You can have many levels of awareness at once.

Freedom is the great gift that can come from speaking your voice. For me, speaking out has been a healing path. As a child I had many premonitions and my parents didn't encourage me to develop my intuition at all. When I was eleven, they told me to never mention them again in our home. So part of my ealy process was suppressing my gift, being shamed into thinking there was something wrong with me. It does tremendous violence to children if their voices and creativity are stifled, if their parent's don't see who they are and don't honor their intuitions.

Finding my voice and coming out in the world with it was healing for me. I had so many questions: why use it? How do I use it? Is it something I should use with patients? When is it appropriate? Can I trust it? We all have these questions; we all fce a collective kind of angst when it comes to embracing our visionary side, because it has bee so divorced from who we are.

My intention is to help make intuition a conscious spiritual practice available in every second of your being here. Tune into this conscious connection by communing with the inner voice, listening to dreams, listening to the body, sensing energies - all ways to interrelat with the world.

This excerpt comes from one of my favorite books, Women of Wisdom: Empowering the Dreams & Spirit of Women. I turn to it for inspiration and often just when I feel I need to have a conversation with a wise woman. I make a cup of tea and talk to one or several of the women included within its pages.

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Catching a Fallen Dream, Part I

Last week in the middle of getting ready for an art walk, a dream catcher fell off the wall. My business partner, Kristie, asked "Can you catch that fallen dream?" As I bent over to grab it I felt the world pause. "Catch the fallen dream" echoed in my head and I knew Spirit was trying to get my attention.

What fallen dream?

This unanswered question got lost in the scurry of activity that often precedes the First Friday Art Walk here in Ellensburg. It was then buried under other obligations and tasks that seemed so important in the moment. But over the next 3 weeks I noticed that everytime I had a minute or two of quiet - my heart felt heavy. As the weeks progressed I began to also notice a little bit of panic growing.

I feel even in this moment of writing this blog the heavy heart, the slight panic and a seemingly unpassable barrier between where I am and where I know I need to be. Suddenly, there just does not seem to be enough room, light or air here. Although my memory is understandably hazy, it seems reminiscent of the birth canal. It's really tight and a bit uncomfortable here, but it's oh so familiar....

I wonder to myself if someone could just do a caesarian on me. But as this thought forms I immediately dismiss it. Perhaps that's what I have been waiting for: someone else to make things happen for me. That certainly has not worked well. The panic keeps rising.

So I spend some time in introspection looking back over the last few years. From this perspective I see that the barrier is certainly not unpassable. I have been moving through it for about two years and am just about ready to break through to the other side. It's the lasst push that has me in a panic.

I'm tired. No two ways about it. I'm simply tired of the resistance. And I'm beginning to think I got a little lost along the way. There was the man that distracted me, the dreams of other people that I supported, my fears, getting settled in a new community, finding a spiritual community, my fears, .... I'm feeling pretty angry about this time.

If I was in labor, they'd tell me I was in transition. That's the part where the woman looks at the father of the baby she's delivering and yells something like, "YOU did this to me, you're never touching me again!" Having assisted with labor and delivery, I know this is usually a very short period of time and it heralds the end of the labor.

So I'm coaching myself to breathe and telling myself it won't be long now. The beauty of being in transition is that there's no turning back, it's unavoidable. All you can do at this point is surrender and let the resistance fall. It's the only way through.

When I see you on the other side - I expect a party!